Back in the Swing of Things

A while back, I reported to my UBBT teammates that I'd somehow lost my mojo. I was exhausted, stressed out, and completely unmotivated. I was dropping weight, feeling lousy, and generally down in the dumps. I needed a break, and I took one. I dropped off the map. And now, things are different.

Maybe it's the change in the weather. Maybe it's because we're finally about to close on the house. Maybe it's because I've changed my routine at the dojo so I can spend more time with my family. Or perhaps its a combination of many factors. In any case, I like what I'm seeing:

• I'm blogging more
• I'm meditating daily
• I don't feel as stressed
• I'm sleeping a little bit better (not MORE, but better!)
• I'm training harder
• I'm smiling more
• I'm getting more reading done

At the start of the year, I weighed in at 187.4 lbs. Four months into the year, I'd dropped below 180 lbs for the first time in a decade. (The bad news was, I wasn't trying to lose weight!) Today I checked in at 182.8. I'm slowly putting some muscle back on while focusing on joint mobility and flexibility.

 

 

 

I'm feeling better and better, even as the dojo enrollment continues to drop, and "staying in business" is getting trickier and trickier. Somehow, though, I'm not concerned. I'm letting go, and that feels right to me, because one of the outcomes is that I'm enjoying my time in the dojo more. I'm feeling more creative and I'm having fun teaching again.

 

Perhaps, as I approach my 40th birthday, I'm feeling a bit of an energy surge -- call it an "eye of the tiger moment," if you will. I don't care. I'm riding this wave all the way to the shore!

Anger Management, Meditation Centers, and the Tao

Another busy week. At Coach Tom's suggestion, I've enrolled in an online Anger Management course. It's not that I have an anger problem, but as a self-defense instructor, I have a role to play in helping people recognize when destructive anger is rising in them, and also to give them some tools to manage their anger and express it constructively. This course will help me be a better, more informed, and more empathic teacher. What a great concept! And yes, every once in a while, I get angry. Everyone does. I'm sure that through this course, I'll learn a few new skills myself!

In further exploration of meditation practices, I spent some time at The Center at Westwoods this week. It's an amazingly peaceful place dedicated to individual inner growth and healing. I sat in meditation by the "moss pond," enjoyed the cool silence of the "goddess cistern," walked the grounds and gardens, and spent some time in the library in the main hall. I'm currently reading from Wayne Dyer's new adaptation/interpretation of the Tao Te Ching, titled, "Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life." I've read the TTC before — I have several different translations of it in my dojo library — but this annotated version has been extremely interesting and educational. Each of the 81 verses of the TTC is accompanied by an essay for study, contemplation, and meditation.

Next week, I begin teaching karate to 4th and 5th grade children at the Gardner Extended Services School as part of their enrichment curriculum. I'm looking forward to teaching — and learning from — the kids. The classes I'll be teaching will have a particular emphasis on building character, discipline, self-confidence, teamwork, and leadership ability. Each class will include physical instruction in traditional karate — using equipment as appropriate — as well as short, informal discussions ("mat chats") on character, self-defense, and other related subjects. I have some interesting ideas to try out, including seeking teacher and parent involvement to ensure that the behaviors and attitudes that are expected during the karate class are being satisfactorily demonstrated at home and in the classroom. Wish me luck!

Trying to grow the school, too. I've written a short article, "Learning to Punch Like a Girl," about the women who train at my dojo for a local online magazine called Misstropolis. It's already live on my "Martial Musings" blog, but I hope the additional exposure on this new website will result in some new inquiries! I've made up about 1,000 new dojo flyers and will distribute as many as I can over the weekend.

Still pushing hard on the physical side, too. I've got to total all my stats and see where things stand. On an interesting note, I bumped into my neighbor, who read about my participation in the UBBT in the local paper. She mentioned that her kids have seen me in the park in the mornings, doing my push ups, crunches, and kata repetitions in the park. Yikes, I'm being watched...!

Good! PLEASE HELP KEEP ME HONEST, EVERYONE!!!

What A Week This Has Been!

I took an hour out of the office to attend a meditation seminar by Shivabalananda, a meditation master from India. I went in very skeptical, mostly due to my unfamiliarity with the Indian culture, I suppose. The session had a strong spiritual theme, too, which I was a little uncomfortable with, but open minded about. You see, my personal meditation practice has always been very informal and VERY private, so sitting still and silent with my eyes closed in a room full of strangers (most of whom were dressed in traditional Indian garb) was more than just a few paces outside of my comfort zone. (Did I mention the vibhuti (sacred ash) that Shivabalananda's assistant placed on everyone's forehead?) When I meditate, I usually sit for no more than 10 or 15 minutes at a time, so a full 45-minute silent meditation was definitely a stretch for me, both physically and mentally. With the longer session, I went through a fairly intense period of "rejection" that must have lasted for about 25 minutes. But after that, my body FINALLY found a comfortable position, and my mind stopped wandering and resisting the silence quite so much. Once I settled down, I felt very peaceful — and free to explore my mind with curiosity. (I'd call it a "mental safari.") I definitely learned "something," but I'm having a hard time articulating exactly WHAT. There's more to explore here, for sure.

I taught a self-defense class for a group of blind young adults at the Carroll Center for the Blind on Wednesday evening. Amazing! This was absolutely one of the most personally rewarding things I've ever done — a personal victory! The students (ages 14-20) were the most energetic, positive, enthusiastic, appreciative, and polite group of young folks I've ever been around. And with a little training, MAN can they hit! It was a challenge to adapt my teaching methods for the audience, but everything fell into place in short order. I know the students left the training with a little more confidence. I left the training on CLOUD NINE. I'm extremely grateful for the opportunity, and I hope to do more training at the center in the future. WOW!

My physical training has been going well, although I think I somehow sprained my wrist. I've had to cut out doing push-ups this week to give my injury time to heal. I'm sure there will be other bumps and bruises that I'll have to deal with — this is a pretty minor annoyance that's hardly worth mentioning, except that I've started to see and feel results from my efforts, and I don't want to backslide! I've signed up for noontime yoga classes at work, too. They start next month.

Falling Into a Rhythm

My Stats To Date:
Push ups: 3,000
Crunches: 3,000
Miles: 27.5
Kata Reps: 65

Falling into a rhythm now — I'm really enjoying my morning routine in the park: Every morning at about 7:00am, there's a group of 60-70 year old Chinese women doing chi-kung exercises by the ballfield. There's usually 7 or 8 of them moving and talking togehter, and when I come along, they stop to fawn over my daughter while I do my crunches on the bleachers. I don't speak a word of Chiense, and they don't speak any English, but still communication is easy. (One morning last week, they even presented me with a package of teething buiscits for Ava — how sweet!)

There are other now-familiar faces in the early-morning, too:

I often spy a man and woman doing Yang-style tai chi (long form) together on the tennis courts. Their tai chi is beautiful and graceful (although their tennis is unforgivingly awful!) ; An older gentleman does kung fu by the tot-lot; still another man stands on the park green in silent, standing meditation. It's an interesing gathering of martial artists! Who knew?

There are others whom I see every morning, too: People on their way to work; a handful of dog walkers; A Russian man walking and doing calisthenics; kids enrolled in summer school pass by and wave or pet my dog while I do my push-ups.

I'm reading "Touching Peace" by Thich Nhat Hanh and enjoying it. Also reading "The Book of Tea" by Kakuzo Okakura. Reminds me of the ceremonies I attended with Master Kaji Aso at the House of Flower Wind before he passed away.